流走就流走...

在听everything but the girl, 所以想起了那个很喜欢他们也曾经让我很喜欢的DJ，ANSON。我十几岁的时候，曾经每天晚上都等着10点半一边听他半个小时的节目，一边写日记，那个节目叫做西乐先锋。
他推荐过的许多东西，有些后来我仿佛从来闻所未闻，也有些后来成了我耳边常响起的音乐，而everything but the girl我之所以记得，并不是因为他们的音乐，而是一开始我总是把他们的名字听成everything but they go。一个能充分体现那个年纪的忧伤的名字，直到我走到teenage的终点，总担心生命不够长又害怕生命太长，在一种患得患失的情调下，自负又自卑的迷失与寻找着。

我还记得ANSON说的一句话，他说：很多你期待已久，憧憬之极，想象的无比美丽的东西，走近了才发现不外如是。那个声音把“不外如是”这四个字说的那么好听。就像是自己亲手卷的雪茄，有一种切身的味道，却又可遇不可求。

Anson总有某句看似不经意的话能打动我，总让我觉得半个小时的节目那么短，每首音乐都那么不可捉摸，于是带着会心的笑容，我认真的听着，仿佛夏夜在校园里那条看不 到尽头的林荫道上安静的走，专注而自然。我曾多么想就那样一直一个人走着，什么都没有，什么都不怕，不想去哪，不急不缓的走下去。
就像后来一个朋友在签名处写的：我想要的，就是牵着你的手，一起走下去。

可惜这种无欲无求，自给自足的快乐，从来都是转瞬即逝的。
而且即使真的走下去，也正如ANSON说的，风景不外如是。

不知为什么，现在突然又开始听everything but the girl了，而且开始喜欢，就像当时喜欢那个专辑的名字，like the deserts miss the rain.我开始感到日渐的苍老，开始学着向往一种平静，规律的生活，更能体会anson的话语和音色。虽然不过三年光景。正如05年的时候这张ANSON所谓的歌迷们千呼万唤才出的新专辑，如今已经旧了。再找回他们九几年的专辑，竟然和现在已经大不一样，更像典型的电子音乐，你听着就忘了将其融入了背景，忘记了声音，忘记了时间，偶尔被一个人声吸引，发现他们唱的，居然就是你的生活。

You never knew the teenage me and
you wouldn't believe the things you didn't see,
some pretty, some ugly.
And the lovely mirrorball reflected back them all
---every triumph, every fight, under disco light.

Well I guess some boys adored me
but the one I loved ignored me,
and caused me in the end to murder my best friend.
And though I got her letter, it never did get better,
and I got out of my head.
Then I joined a band instead.

Come on girl, it's alright.
Come on girl, it's alright now.
Come on girl, it's gonna be alright now.

Some good times I remember - my birthday that September,
we lay down on the lawn,
and counted until dawn,
the stars that we lay under.
And is he still, I wonder, the fairest of them all, mirror,
mirrorball.

Come on girl, it's too late. Come on girl, it's too late now.
Come on girl, let it all go.  Come on girl, it's too late now.
Come on girl, it's gonna be alright.
Come on girl, it's never gonna be alright.
It's too late now.
Let it all go...
Cause it's never gonna be alright.

那时候，一天中的24小时，我最喜欢23点，因为在节目结束后，能听到anson的声音，带着一种倦意的认真，说：北京时间23点。

looking back at the faces of the teens
why do you have to be so cute, it's impossible to ignore you...